I had very big plans today for a clear and consise promotional idea conceived last night. I had a great plan for substantial steps toward reclaiming my musical dream. So, Today I woke, slowly got out of bed to test my limbs and immediately got distracted by 2 flies that found their way into my closed up apt. I spent 30 min chasing them, successfully dispatched with said flies, and then fed Normal (my grumpy obese cat). I got a yogurt and decided I needed to lie back down a min. Three hours later I've managed to Follow 6 different dancers on FB breaking down hip hop moves I've wanted to learn so I can create a routine for one of my songs. I mean, don't laugh. Have you ever checked how much having a choreographed dance group create a 30 second routine for your song costs? I have. Not happening. I have great rhythm and have danced in the past (way long past). I really have needed to start doing yoga again and have needed to work out. So, why not start learning some incredibly difficult and fast paced moves relying on impecible balance and stamina? Seems perfect, especially since I was having some trouble balancing easily on the swaying hallway flooring today during my fly quest. Anyway, I got a little distracted for 3 hours by such pursuits because after laying back down, I felt exhausted as if I'd already worked on those dances for hours simply because I chased those stupid flies. Of course, at this point my brain has now deleted not only the content of my life changing promotion and fundraising plan from last night, but it has convinced me that the effort is really not worth the effort of trying to stand back up at this point. This has now completely pissed me off. I'm so pissed off at myself and my MeSsy brain that I'm preparing to rise and conquer! In other words, I'm going to go sit at my desk to see if I can do something productive. Breaking that down for you, what being "productive" at this point means is I'll have to get myself focused toward that creative, yet organized mindset. This will likely take a couple of hours to outline bullet points for ideas, people to talk to, and tasks to do first. Then I'll find a list I already jotted down about those very things and will have to compare and then feel irritated at myself for wasting time. Ultimately, everything will all come together in my mind right about the time I need to stop any work for a prior commitment. Looking at the time now, I know it's already too late (especially since I have come back to this post I already completed nearly 2 hours ago to say more of the things I realized I should have said before relating to what all this writing is going to actually be about... plus I'd wanted to add a picture but they were on my tablet at my desk not the phone I was on initially... ultimately being what drew me out of the bed hole and forced me to get to the desk..) What was I talking about? Oh... it's basically too late to get started on my big plan today and tomorrow is dreaded "store day", otherwise known as "how long will I wait for Uber and how hot is it going to be?" day.. AACCKK !!!! Another F*cking fly just literally landed on my screeen!!!! And we are back to the beginning. There you go. Welcome to my MeSsy Life.